this is so not me...

Its 5.55 a.m. in the morning ... and what am i doing here? Without saying, i m wide awake and this is so not me, woke up at 4 something just now and just couldnt bring my self to dreamland anymore. Its understandable if its during exam period, but now i m having holidays, i should be sleeping like a PIG!!ok la , literally i mean.

nvm, i shall go to tanjung and see the beautiful sunrise in about an hour time ..

Since there is no 1 for me to talk to as such a weird n sleepy time, i shall talk to my blog, and in the end others will get to see it ..:)

Why waking up so early in the morning you may ask. Well, besides exams stress, there are still some other responsibilities for me to hold it on my shoulder. In this context, i'm not talking about my relationship, but rather my other commitments in club activities. I'm really stressed and still stressing about it. Lots of planning to be done, fear of making mistakes, the fear of not being able to perform up to others expectation, fear of having to attend many activities. No doubt, it helps me to fill up my free time more usefully but i'm the kind of person which at times are so comfortable with my current position and situation that i dont really like to expect and accept new challenges in my life..

i know this is part and parcel of life, everyone will need to go through it. I just want to lead a normal life and be a normal and average student in my college. I am not the kind of person which enjoys other ppl's attention ( at times ), because with that, there is a price to pay for it. Sometimes the inner me says that i shouldnt, i should back out, push the responsiblity to others and i'll leave and be happy to be a normal member.This is a not a responsible way to do things, i know i know and i know. Why is this giving me so many sleepless nights? Since last year till now , countless days of sleepless nights, i kid you not.. This is so not me again.

My intermediate LLB results are also one of my main concern now. Finger crossed and still crossing that everything will be well. :)

Met up with henry and jason last night just to chill and kill my boredom. We are the only three muarians that is currently studying at ATC, ok at least as far as i know la . Get to know quite a lot about their intakes and even juicy stories out of their intakes.. As compared to our intake, theirs can be considered as very happening also. Organising trips to pulau redang and other places. They seems to be so relax..... coming back to muar everyweek!!... This is really puzzles me .. How do they manage to do that?.. :) ....

My life in muar now is like so monotonious, nothing really excited or thrilling to talk and blog about, but yeah..i should enjoy this holiday to the fullest!As the previous post suggest, i m working as a tuition centre in muar. Well, as least it kills off some of my boredom..

how so?

Marking their homework can be some what entertaining at times . Grammer mistakes, spelling mistakes which sometimes turn out to be a laughing thing for us. Well, i am currently teaching standard 3 and standard 4 students...

Different children have different personalities, attitudes towards their work, and behavior. Some will drive me crazy to the very edge of the wall, and some makes me even want to impart more knowledge to them.

the standard 3 class is some what of a problem for me .. Their behaviour is sooooooo... hmm words cant really describe it .. nuisance... utter nuisance.. this is what i can say. ... creating a whole lot of nuisance for me. Imagine a student, she can make noise from the very beginning of the class till the very end of the class...

There is no problem for me to continue with my lesson if i want, its just that i am afraid that others will be affected and i will not be acting fair to those who really want to learn...

I can think of a realistic example which illustrates how bad the class it ...

For almost the same syllabus and amount of materials to teach both the standard 3 and 4 class....

i need only 1 hour and 15 minutes to teach the standard 4 students, and everything is like in detail

But for the standard 3 class,

i will need the whole 2 hours for me to finish up my syllabus. Adding to that, sometimes it is not in detail but rather i would need rush through due to the time constraint.

Am i like those standard 3 students when i m at their age? .. this is something for me to ponder on ... :)

Hmm its 6.46 a.m. now ! time to go to tanjung!!..